On my eighteenth birthday, my father said to me, "If you haven't learned it yet, you are not going to." It meant no more rules, no more curfew. It meant independence and freedom.
It also meant that there will be many stormy days and I will go through them on my own and there will be also many crash courses and when I come out of them, I will never be the same person. That is what all these stormy days and crash courses are about.
During the last year I received a crash course on pandemic, viruses and their dynamics, on our fragility as humans and then another crash course came, it was tragic and turned my life upside down. My husband was diagnosed with Alzheimer's (a fatal and devastating disease) and with this diagnose our life has changed forever.
That is my new normal now where there is little time for everything.
On the days when I am overwhelmed emotionally and physically I remind myself the words my father said to me on that memorable day when I turned eighteen. "You can do hard things. We all can do them."
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По бумаге кляксою вся жизнь растекается и не получается мало говорить... Правильно, не правильно, а какая разница? Мне надо больше двигаться и меньше говорить...
On paper, the whole life spreads like a blot and it is impossible to say a little ... Correct, not correct, but what difference does it make? I need to move more and talk less ...
