Sunday, December 12, 2021

Notes to Self - XXI. My Happy Place

It's 7:00 a.m.  A light breeze gently touches my face. The cool air smells and feels so pure. The vast field is filled with white daisies, little irrepressible grasshoppers and butterflies.  Is it really possible, just like that, to leave home and find yourself in paradise?

This is one of those places I have longed to visit but for some reason have never made the extra effort to see, even though it's just a twenty minute drive from my home.

The moment I am stepping out of my car I smile. In front of me the amazing wetland surrounded with tall trees. The moment is so simple, soulful and joyful that I feel alive again after going through some of the hardest months of my life. 

I wish I would have more of these snapshots of joy and be able to string them together into a long line of happiness to remember how life should feel.  

By the way, I am leaving a lot of my life up to chance these days and feel like I am marching into thick forest, with no compass to guide me. Direction is so unclear that I feel often fucking lost but standing still is not an option. I have to keep moving forward.



 

Generally, life is good!